The Journey Begins

Hello. If you’ve stumbled across my page, I’ll have you know that I started this page on a Friday morning with my 12-week old daughter squirming around on her bouncer next to me and while my almost 2-year old son is tossing and turning on his fairly new toddler bed, fighting his afternoon nap, through the baby spying monitor. My hair is pulled back in a fabric headband and elastic band, I have on essentially pajamas still at 12:30 in the afternoon, and I’m trying to navigate this WordPress website (since I only decided an hour ago that building up an entire blog would be a great idea one week before I return to work from maternity leave).

I’m a 36-year old born again Christian with a small family, I teach high school drama (no, I literally teach the subject, not just hear about it), I own a lovely home in a suburb of the same district I teach in, and I have a mild obsession with Disney pins and a newly discovered love affair with essential oils.

Even with all of this, I’m a failure. Yes, you’ve read that word correctly. I am a failure. As a sinner, I fail everyday at coming remotely close to Jesus’s goodness and holiness.

I fail my husband when I don’t respect him or treat him with the love that he deserves.

I fail my children when my patience runs thin and I find myself yelling in a register that is far from pleasant.

I fail my dad when I ask for his unconditional help yet I don’t offer enough of my own services.

I fail my students when my attitude switches from fully giving of my time to hardly wanting to devote one more second.

I fail God when I tell Him I don’t have the time to give, serve, or grow in His Word and community.

My hope with this blog is to be transparent and real, serious and funny, as I share day-to-day accounts of my little, regular life. There is genuine peace in knowing that as I fall on my face, when things don’t go my way, when life turns up lemons, that God’s grace reminds me that I can still be redeemed, that His mercies are new every day, and forgiveness can be found reassuringly just around the corner.

“Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace that we may find mercy & grace in time of need.” – Hebrews 4:16 KJV

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